THATZ WHY!!!!

Az i sit here with the knife to mii stomach and the razor to mii wrist...all i see is u....u look at me with those judging eyez that cut rite thru me like the razor in mii skin...i cut so deep i get so dizzy...im now numb to the pain..numb to the blood...numb to the world....ive got so mani reasonz....so much pain inside...everi one askz why? a family that never cared..a dad that beatz her krazii...the onlii one that ever gave a shyt is now above us all..shez an angel now...like shez alwayz been.... i hav no one! THATZ WHY!!