You. Both of you.
You were perfect. Both of you were. We were perfect for each other. We shared countless laughs, we helped each other with all of our problems, we talked for hours both in person and over the phone, we understood one another without saying a single word, we comforted each other when one needed it, and so much more. I could count on both of you for everything and anything and you guys would be there. If I needed a shoulder to cry on, you guys would be there. If I needed to laugh, both of you would be there until I cracked a smile. If I needed any sort of advice, both of you would be there telling me your opinion on the subject.
And then you left. Both of you left. You went guys went to another place. Without me. Another rout. Another path. Another way to Neverland. Without me.
There is no going back. You abandoned me. And I made the mistake of letting you. Letting you do it. Letting you go.
I was left with one. One more person. But they too let me down.
I was stranded. With nowhere to go. With no one to love me. I didn't know what to do. I tried hanging out with some people, but it never worked out. I then decided to spend most of my recesses alone, wondering how you guys were doing and if I ever crossed your minds.
Texting had gone from a lot to not talking to one another for weeks. I hadn't heard from either of you and I suppose you weren't interested in what I had to say so I kept quiet.
Now, we talk more. And it's amazing. We see each other from time to time, but it's not the same.
I needed someone who wouldn't give up on me, no matter how many times I messed up. That was you. That was both of you. Now I don't have that.
We clicked. There aren't many people that you just "click" with, and when you find those people, you don't just let them go. But you did. You didn't do it on purpose. You didn't really have a choice. But you did. Both of you did.
You. Both of you. The people I grew up with. You are now gone. Both of you are. You guys vanished in thin air. My two prized possessions, gone. Nowhere to be seen. Just gone. Hidden in plain sight.
I am not blaming you guys for this. Like I mentioned before, neither of you had a choice.
I just want to let you know I smile when I hear your names. Sometimes I even laugh because I was thinking of all the wonderful and hilarious times and memories we shared. But then my smile turns into a frown knowing that it will never go back to the way it used to be.
Now you must be wondering why I am writing this. I mean, nothing will change and that is no one's fault. But the reason I am writing this. The reason I care so much. Is because I am broken without you. And I just really wanted you to know that. I just really wanted both of you to know that.
Author Notes: Each night, I put my head to my pillow. I try to tell myself I'm strong because I have gone one more day without you.