i regret what you did

Sometimes, I get so sad

I don’t even know how to breathe

I didn’t know

You wouldn’t be a good person underneath

But I feel empty without you

I feel like I want to die

And I never really said goodbye

I just want to cry and cry and cry

***

Everything takes me back to those days when we were good friends

We did everything together, before

The day that everything changed

I yelled at you, you slammed the door

“What happened? We used to be pals,” you said

I yelled at you that you were being a jerk

I know what was going on between us

Wasn’t going to work

***

I knew deep down you weren’t a good person

You really just wanted to use me

I remember you made me cry a lot

For the way things turned out to be

You manipulating me to think it was all my fault

I cried so hard, thinking everyone hated me

But it was YOU who didn’t stop when I told you to stop

I had to apologize because you harassed me?

But I miss crying about that

I miss having to talk to adults about it

I miss not being able to sleep

I MISS YOU

I KNOW I SHOULDN’T

BUT I DO