Sometimes I just want to end it, I really hate myself, and give been struggling with self harm and suicidal thoughts, and I honestly don't know what to do, im currently in a hospital because of my mental health. I just don't feel right because my foster family gave up on me when I needed them the most, im not allowed to talk to my bio mom because of all of the times that we argued, I have court next week, and I just don't know... they are sending me to an RTF (residential treatment facility) and I just want to end it. Ive been planning for awhile and Ive also been writing goodbye letters, I feel horrible, and miserable. I cut every day, places nobody can see... my inner ankles, my thighs, etc. but I just dont know what to do anymore.. I want to kill myself and I just hate the thought of living, and seeing whats beyond this point, because I know im eventually going to kill myself because I dont want to get old, I dont want to live a life, I just want to be high, and I want to die. I just want to fucking end it, my life is fucking sickining, im so lost and I feel so much pain from my trauma, I just want to commit suicide, I knew what sex was when I was only fucking 5! I knew what drugs were when I was 7! I overdosed when I was 11! like WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK I JUST WANT TO COMMIT SUICIDE!!!!!!
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United States • 22 years old