Idiot

Once, I considered myself

A smart student, but now,

I consider myself

A massive idiot.

I am an idiot because

I am a waste of time

In everyone’s lives.

Everyone may say

That I am useful,

But that is simply

Not true, in my case.

I am a useless, shell-shocked

Idiot.

Even though I’ll get in trouble

For writing bad things about

Myself, I’ll still do it

Because I’m just an idiot.

Of course, I’ll do it.

Honestly, I’m scared

Of myself, of what I think,

Of what I can do.

I’m not just a peaceful,

Quiet teenager.

I am a burning flame

That won’t go out

Because people just

Continue to add logs

To my crackling frame.

I am an idiot

For loving her,

Because I know now

That I can’t have her.

I thought I got over her a

Long time ago, but 2 ½

Years of asking to date her

Just don’t go away.

I am an idiot

Because I have that

Flame inside of me

Screaming at my soul to

Tear apart the asshole

Who stole her from me

After she’s known her for
TWO HOURS,

Every part of me aches

To break him in

Half like the twig

He is, but I’m not

A violent person, and

I’ll never do it,

Because in this one

Single instance, I’m

Being smart about

My actions.

This is my message

To her, if I ever

Share it with her.

Thanks for ruining

That one shred of

Soul I saved for

You, of all people,

You backstabbing,

Depression-inducing

Anorexic asshole.

Thanks for wasting

2 ½ years of my

Teenage life.

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