i feel like a failure. Im no one to anyone. i feel alone in this huge world and will never be fully understood. my parents have reaches ive pushed away.... my many friends i have no more. i refuse to let anyone in and thta is my fault. I dont feel depressed or sad i feel numb and empty. I cry and have no clue why. i just wanna be normal.no the failure i am in my fathers eyes. It hurts knowing he doesnt love me anymore. i think i need to get away for a few days maybe months or even years. this place is so toxic.... society has changed for the worst. sometimes i wonder what is would be like to die... how it would feel. Would i feel happy? Sad? Free? Sometimes i cant breath and choke on air sobbing. My dog is the only one who can acually calm me... I jutd want to know whats wrong with me what is causing these feelings? im just to scared to open up about them.
United States • 22 years old