So there I was again; sixteen years old and alone with no boyfriend. I just felt very unlucky. My love life was a mess. It seems that I'm very unlucky when it comes to love. However that all changed one night. It was 19th November 2010 and I was casually strolling through a chat site hoping to meet new people. There he was; Lloyd A.K.A mrwarlock12. I found this name quite funny at first but then we got chatting. I still remember the first thing he said to me:
Hi! I'm so glad to start talking to you! You seem like a nice person.
It seemed like an ordinary conversation but then feelings developed. What was this feeling inside me? Could this really be love already? I don't even know him properly. "Maybe I should take it slow with this guy..." I thought to myself. I didn't want to risk getting hurt again. I just couldn't help myself though. I was falling for him. This time I won't let anything bad happen. We instantly clicked. The next day we started dating. It was quick but I knew he was the one for me and no one could tell me otherwise. The only problem was, we lived so far apart. Two hours away from each other. Long distance relationships aren't really for me but I'm so in love so I would have to give it a try.
I remember the first time we ever spoke on the phone. It was very nerve racking. My voice trembled as soon as he picked up the phone.
"Hello..." My voice just would not stop trembling. "Err, Lloyd...Hi..." The trembling just got worse and he finally spoke. "Hi babe, how are you?" His voice... It was so calming. I relaxed straight away and we talked on the phone for about an hour. We didn't say much to each other but to me it was the best phone call I ever had. From then on, Lloyd and I progressed our relationship until certain circumstances drove us apart a year later. Heartbroken, I tried to move on. I just couldn't do it. He was the love of my life and I just couldn't cope without him. At the time, I was studying at college. My grades were slipping and I was severely depressed. I turned to suicide at one point. All I could think was how much he must have hated me for leaving him. I know it was the biggest mistake of my life.
However, just months later he told me he would still always be there for me no matter what. I was so happy. I quickly got into a new relationship but that ended very badly. Lloyd was there and we connected again. Love works in mysterious ways. He had waited for me the whole time and that is what real love is. I feel bad for leaving him but he forgives me. Not once did he hate me and I'm so glad. This is my true love and I do not intend to leave him again. We are now happily engaged and I just want to put the past behind me and let it stay where it belongs.