You say you love me.
You say you support me.
You tell me it's okay when I'm sad.
But now you tell me you're sad.
I know you had a hard life growing up.
I come to tell you who I am.
You tell me it's a "phase."
You tell me you went through the same thing.
If I have felt this way my whole life then how?
How is it a "phase?"
How am I not me?
You said you loved me.
You said you supported me.
You comforted me when I was sad,
but now you say I don't exist.
tell me really,
Do I matter? Really?
Because YOU said that if I changed to a boy you would lose me.
You never lost me,
I've always been a boy....
just on the inside.
I want to stay close, so don't say you lost me
if you haven't yet.
Author Notes: This would be like a letter to my mom. When I turn 18 I am going to transition (ftm) but for now I am actually a girl. :(