Usually I have a speech written out when I comment on your works. This time I don't.
Not that I don't have words for you, but I believe that music can be the messenger - it's certainly stronger and more unique when put up against my words.

Two songs came to mind when I read your work.
I hope you take a listen to and find what you are looking for and encapture it in yourself.

Queensryche - Someone Else?
Glenmore - Take On A Shining Star