Sometimes I feel like I can't let my feelings out.
Once I do, they always look at me strangely, like it's weird for me to let it out.
I feel like once I talk to people about things, I'm bombarding them.
I don't like crying in front of people, it makes me feel weak and stupid.
People ask "Are you okay?" or "What's wrong", but I know they don't care.
They just don't ever know what to do or say to me when I finally break down.
I don't want anyone to tell me things like "It's going to be okay" or anything like that,
I want them to be there when I cry and just listen to me.
I want them to let me cry because that's the only time I am truly me.
When I'm not crying, I turn into the "I don't care anymore" person.
I want to be able to let it out, all the pain.
But I can't help but to feel stupid or foolish when I finally do.
And I know that people probably have it worse than me and I always remind myself that,
but I still have my own problems that tear me apart too.
And I need just one day where I need to be able to yell at the world until my throat goes dry and my lungs give out.