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Heartbreak and Betrayal
Heartbreak and Betrayal

Heartbreak and Betrayal

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It all started out in my eighth-grade year in middle school. I’ve always wanted to know how could I have ever let myself fall so hard and deeply in love with someone so useless. I literally use to think I would die without you in my life, but time showed me differently. I was just becoming an eighth-grader and you were now a seventh-grader. Never did it occur to me that because of your age it would leave me devastated and not able to trust a soul. You made me the happiest person in the entire world. I remember the nights where I would just lie there hoping for a text or a call, which never came. There go my dreams of being happy, running down the drain with the tears that were busy falling down my face as I cried in the shower because in public you don’t even know my name. Time went by and before you knew it we had an off-and-on relationship. I never noticed that it was all forced and you wanted no parts of it, but all I wanted was to be happy. I pushed myself into so many different relationships after me and you were officially done, and it showed more than ever. If I could take back some of the things I’ve said and done I would, but it’s not my place to mess with fate. I remember how I would just watch you, I was so fascinated with you. I remember our first conversation, it was on a school bus, one of the best convos I have ever had. I asked you what you wanted to do after high school, you told me you wanted to be one of the best female basketball players in the world. I told you I wanted to do business and the conversation went on from there. I watched you for a little while before I decided to ask you out, you were so easy to talk to. Never would I have imagined that you would be the vicious, cold-hearted person that you are. You seemed so nice and loving only to teach me that if you put trust in everyone you meet you will surely die someday.

Just thinking about the hurtful things we did to each other is so painful. I wanted to marry you and give you my all, my everything, and my soul, but that was all a fairy tale that I was living. When I came to reality it hit me that only three of those things happened and that was the cold hard truth that you had taken everything from me that meant the most. I used to think of myself as the most clever and unbreakable, but you beat me at my own game. I created a saying that is “IF YOU CREATE THE GAME, PLAY THE GAME, THEN YOU FOR SURELY WILL WIN THE GAME”. Most people ask me what is it that I mean, well it’s all about how you take it. If you set your own trap then you will know how to get out of it correct? That’s creating the game. Getting yourself out of the trap is playing the game and finally getting what you wanted is winning the game. Sad to say but I used that method on the beloved love of my life. I watched you, then I went out to get you, then I succeed in getting you, but I couldn’t keep hold of you. Every day I have to look in your face because we attend the same school, but I have found a much greater love than what we had. Simply because what we had wasn’t real that’s if I’m quoting you correctly. You have broken me in ways I didn’t even know people could be broken. Now I’m just a huge sack of broken bones and a puzzle with so many missing pieces that counseling couldn’t even help heal me of the things that you have put me through. I would be a true crazy person not to wish death on you, but I’m not going to do that to you. I’m going through such a huge change in my life at the moment that I don’t wanna be a violent person anymore. My new relationship has taught me some things about love, and that is, If you really love someone it will show, and if that person truly loves you they will show it. Love is not just about being there for each other it’s about caring and loving that person even when everyone in the world is up against that person you have to be that person to assure them that everything will be okay. You and I just didn’t have that, we didn’t know how to be there for each other. Maybe it was because of our age or just the timing but still to this day you have so much hatred and bitterness towards me, but that stopped nothing at all. If there is one thing I want people to learn from my pain that is, Even if the whole wide world stops messing with you don’t let it bother you because they don’t make bunk beds in caskets! Oh and P.S. I’m doing just fine without you! My Girlfriend and I who have been dating for 6 months couldn’t be happier. You were exactly what I needed, thanks a lot.

So approximately 13 days later and here I am wishing that I hadn’t wasted 6 FREAKING MONTHS of my life after writing the first half ending. Let’s jump back to when it all started. Tuesday, April 2, 2019, I’m at school and usually I eat lunch with my regular group of friends but that day I sat with my sisters. My girlfriend well my now Ex-girlfriend and I made direct eye contact when she saw me sitting at that table with them but no words were spoken. Know I know everyone is gonna say I’m the one in the wrong but I wasn’t. Later on that day I went on to work and I would always enjoy going to work when I was working unfortunately it came to an end. Now, this is where it all went wrong with our relationship. I was on my way home from a great day of work when my night got turned upside down. Some idiot hit the back of my car and my whole life was started to flash before my eyes. Jumping past all that I made it home and told her about the car accident and after one little “Are you ok?” she wanted to talk about some damn messages about me CHEATING. Like are you serious right now? We didn’t have that discussion until the next morning when she sent me the messages and I wasn’t shocked at all because after all, they were lies. The messages jumped back to me sitting at the table with my sisters and not them. Me being myself I observe everything and had to look into who could have sent her those messages. My brother and I sat on the phone as we talked about the message and I looked through all the people who follow her on Instagram and you would not believe what I found. IT WAS HER!! It was her the entire time she made all the lies up herself. The Instagram page took me to a page that had her first and last name and her PICTURE! To top all that off she even follows the account. I questioned her about it and she told me nothing but lies. She claims she had no parts in any of it AT ALL! I broke it off and now here I am moving on up in life trying to figure out how did I get to this point. At one point in my life, I was THE KING OF THE WORLD! I had it all, My Soul, Dignity, Heart, and most importantly MY PRIDE. I lost all of this way before I met my Ex. I just haven’t been able to get all the way back. In the first half of this story, I gave you some of the main things that ended Jamie and I’s relationship. Jamie was the love of my life everything I’ve ever wanted. I have had a very bad history with everyone with the name who starts with J. We just never seem to last because they are so damn incompetent. My Ex-girlfriend’s name starts with a J and looks at that. I look back at all of this and I wonder where does it all go wrong at? Like I know it can’t be me so it has to be them. I know I’m a changed person at this point in my life because back when I had it all, My Crown, King Cape, and My Throne. I was KICKED off my throne, How could that be? I wasn’t always the best person back when I use to blackmail and Extort people but I was having the time of my life. Life was fun and exciting and I smiled every day only because I thought I was truly as happy as I could be. Now I’m sitting around looking at how different things are and how I want my new image to look. I need people to take me seriously and not for a joke. One of the most important things one of my friends has said/asked me was “you’re one of the most talented people I know, you know how to do everything. How aren’t you out here making money?” That really spoke to me like wow I truly am very talented. I should’ve been so far deep in my bag by now that 5 of them have already ripped through. On another topic, I have another letter J to talk about which surprisingly had a quiet ending. Jasmine was her name, short-lived fling that went nowhere

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