Every time I try to cry, I can't do it.
I want to, oh trust me I do, but I just can't.
My heart and brain are both screaming at me to cry,
but it's like I go against them saying "you're stronger than this".
So I just lay there in the dark staring into nothingness and I can feel my heart ache and scream to let it out.
To let the pain out, but I don't do it.
My heart shatters into pieces every time and I can feel the pieces break off, piece by piece.
Every piece feels like a stab to the heart, but that's okay.
It helps me to remember that if you feel the pain, you're alive.
I want to cry out in pain, I really do, but I just can't find myself to do it.