I. Will. Never. Hope. Again.

Tell me more lies

That she`ll come back

That she`ll remember me

That she`ll love me

That she`ll be sorry

That she`ll try

That she`ll stay this time

That she`ll be my mother

I know that it`s all lies, though.

I`m 12 years old.

I`m not a child.

I don`t believe your lies.

You can stop lying to me.

You can stop giving me false hope.

You can stop telling me it`ll be OK.

That the trauma is nonexistent.

You can tell me your lies until you`re blue in the face.

But you`re just wasting your breath.

And your soul.

Away to tell a lie.

And as much as I wish to believe it,

I won`t

I refuse

I can`t have that false hope.

It`ll break me down

Just

to

build

me

up

again

And whisper in my ear

She`s coming back

And then throw me into hell.

But then I remember,

I`m living in hell

I`m having that false hope

I want her back, too

I miss her

I still cry over her

And

I

Will

Never

Hope

Again

For anything better to happen

For my trauma to end.

But it will never.

And I will never stop hoping

for

the

pain

to

end.

Author Notes: I needed to get this off my chest and give you a taste of what I`m going through.

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