The day İ see her face. İ didint feel anything.
We were working same place, and i was her boss.
The thing is whenever i talked to her and heard problems she have.
İ should ve ran.
But i didnt..
İ helped her own personel problems.
Tried to make her happy.
We hang out few times.
And we both felt happy and free. i know it. i saw it in her eyes and face.
Then we got closer and closer.
She hugged and cried couple times when she felt angry, sad or weak.
And i was always with her that moments.
İ thought yes she has such a horrible past. and still the same problems comes out. but i loved the way she is.
She was so strong and beatifull.
So i decided to talk about my felings and i did. She stared at me her eyes were smiling . She was happy and i wanted to say OMG MARRY ME.
Then she said " i love you too. more than others "
Next day she just said dont be mad or sad. but it wont gonna happen.
So i was confused.
Why did she even said that.??
İ have peacefull life in a silent place. i have no problems at all. i wanted to make her unbearable life better. İ knew her problems will be mine but i accepted that.
But she just said that.
İ was sad and thoughtfull that week.
Asking myself WHY.?
We didint stop talking of course. we re still hanging around. ( as a friend )
But her actings are like we are ten years married couple^^
So im still confused.
What we are is not clear yet.
Any advices or thoughts?
Author Notes: Fall in love when youre ready.
Not when youre lonely.