Sorry

Look.

I know you don't care anymore.

Everything you said to me was meaningless.

You didn't see it, but your words cut deep.

I know you're to blame for this.

But still I feel selfish for wanting to stay with you.

For wanting to stay with someone who only hurt me.

And I'm sorry.

I'm sorry for being so "clingy" as you called it.

I'm sorry for telling you my secrets, thinking I could trust you.

I'm sorry for needing your help.

I'm sorry for not being strong enough to push you away.

I'm sorry for not being able to turn my emotions off the way you do.

But most of all..

I'm sorry for telling you things inside my head.

It drove you to madness.

It crushed you.

And now you're gone.

But it made me wonder.

Why did I think you were so strong if you crumbled at a single one of my thoughts?

Why did I look up to you thinking you could take away all the pain?

Why was I so foolish to think you would be able to help me?

Why did I think these things when you went crazy knowing what was in my head?

Why did I think these things when I had lived with my mind my whole life?

I know now that I am stronger than you.

I know that I have always been stronger than you.

I know that I don't need you anymore and I never did.

And I'm ready to move on.

So this is my last message to you.

Thank you for showing me how strong I am.

But I don't need you anymore.

So I'm sorry.

And lastly..

Goodbye.