I'm kind of at a loss for words, I feel like I keep saying and thinking the same things over and over again. Every day I wake up, I do the same things. I lay in bed and stare at the ceiling not wanting to get up. I sit there thinking about just staying in bed, whats the worst that could happen right?
I lay in bed contemplating wether or not to get up even though ill regret it later. Once i finally do get up I immediately want to lay back down. Im tired. No matter how long I slept the night before, I just want to sleep.
Every day is the same, its a loop. I keep spinning and spinning but I always come right back to where I started. I feel as though I will never be able to step off of the the train that always brings me to the same destination.
I don't want this, I don't want the constant overwhelming feeling that nothing will ever change, and the only way it will is if I make it.
Author Notes: I haven't been writing, I guess this is a step towards the change