Sometimes things don't matter to me anymore, sometimes everything becomes blank. I never thought that taking a breath could be so hard I never understood those people who let everything get to them, but know that im one of them I get it. I get how even waking up in the morning is a struggle how everything becomes unimportant. how one person can make your life fucking miserable. I never understood depression or cutting I thought it was stupid I always said there were other ways to get out of your problems
I guess you don't how it feels until you go through it. I swear to god it the worse feeling in this universe. now I understand what they mean by " don't judge unless you know how it feels" because now that I need to wake up every morning not knowing whether I will be okay or if I wont cry or Break down in the middle of the day. it gets harder by the day it makes walking, breathing, eating a struggle
so take in consideration other people are better at hiding it the girl who is always smiling could be abused at home she might be forced to put on a smile . The guy that is quiet might get bullied. you never know what another person life is like. Like im always smiling but i want to fucking end it.
Author Notes: My first story hope you guys like it. I know its not the best.
United States • 20 years old