where are you?
you're never around when I need you.
thoughts circling my head,
bad thoughts.
the voices they're back,
their talking and saying mean things,
their telling me I don’t belong here,
that no one ever loved me.
you lied,
you said you would be here when I needed you.
your gone, you ran because you were scared,
scared of the beast that’s inside of me,
scared I would hurt you,
scared you would feel the way I do.
you got through your pain,
while I’m suffering from my pain.
where are you?
you’re not here.
you left me here to die.
you never cared,
you just felt bad.
so, you acted as you loved me,
you acted like you cared,
all you were was scared,
scared I would make you suffer like I am.
you think you know me,
but you don’t you only know my story.
I can say I want to die and you wouldn’t care.
you would be happy again.
it’s my fault you’re in pain,
but it’s not my fault you’re not here.
you promised you would be here,
but you ran and hid from me.
where are you?
nowhere to be found.
but you know what,
I don’t need you,
I don’t love you,
I don’t miss you,
I don’t want to see you anymore.
if you don't wanna be around then fine.
I'm tired of fighting for you to stay,
I'm tired of loving you,
I'm tired of you always walking away from me.
just say you don't want me in your life and I'll leave.
you're the one that makes me want to stay.
but guess what IM DONE.
it's over.
goodbye, my love.
Author Notes: just something that came together kind of