#2

hey.

i'd like to acknowledge you and the situation you've put me in.

i have spent much too long keeping my pathetic mouth shut.

if you hadn't noticed, you have broken my heart. are you aware of this?

or are you just too caught up in your own self-pity to realize how fucked up you make me feel?

you act like i don't exist, and when i do exist-- i've done something wrong or i'm just in your way.

too much time has been wasted avoiding this, so i need to you to be a man and tell me the truth.

about--

about us.

me.

pretty much everything.

why, oh for god's sake, WHY??

why did you do this to me?

do you understand how many nights i spent, sleepless and teary-eyed, thinking of our conflicting opinions on what we were.

i liked you. you KNOW THAT I DID!

you had so, so, so many oppurtunities to stop with your silly and heartbreaking little games--

and

yet

you

continued.

did you find it funny?

did you smile to yourself, knowing i was wrapped around your finger for i-don't-know-how long?

did i deserve it in some sick way?

well.

i, for one, am done with this disgusting game.

you win. are you happy now?

again, i will always have a scrap of love for you buried deep in my bones,

but for now, you don't get to see that.

so please.

tell me the truth.

at least look me in the eye.

but stop pretending i don't exist.

i think it might be killing me.

Author Notes: i think i might really be heartbroken or something right now. sorry for swearing :(