To look at you and another girl hugs you is sudden death for her.
But to see you smile after she hugged you is betrayal at its finest.
Seeing you sit next to a girl and have a normal conversation with her is like being stabbed in the heart a thousand times.
Especially when that girl is a cheerleader.
I cant help my jealous thoughts or what you do.
No matter how many mind messages I try and send.
They never seem to reach you.
Even if I cry out to nothing and no one in particular
You wouldn't care or hear.
Your mind would be filled with the thoughts of another girl.
But then in the classroom you sit and stare.
And when I speak to you you turn to stone and zip your lips and throw away the key somewhere.
When I am around you move to anywhere but near me.
But with everyone else you answer there questions and don't move when their near.
Instead you stay and talk for years and years
That somewhere where you threw away your key is the place I want to be.
Somewhere we can sit and talk and sit for hours.
In our own little bubble of peace and trust and filled with just us.
But that bubble gets pooped when images rush to my head.
Of with with other girls talking hugging and laughing.
United States • 19 years old